So as a labor and delivery nurse my pregnancies follow the timeline of: non viable, viable, term and get this baby the hell out of me! Currently still in the non viable, but in a few days- VIABLE!! Yay. They are moving so much and it's getting hard to distinguish which one is moving now. I have a lot more headaches with this pregnancy than my others which I'm told is normal with twins and I can feel my abdominal muscles stretching in my upper abdomen and I still have a ways to go. Blah! But what keeps me smiling is the thought of getting to see my IP's hold these 2 little buggers for the first time! And I'm not gonna lie I think it's gonna be pretty cool to hold 2 newborns that I helped to create at the same time.
The guys still keep in contact almost everyday by email just to check on me and see how my family is doing. I can't imagine how helpless they feel not only having to have someone else do "the dirty work" but being so far away from the whole situation. I can tell they just want me to know that they are there if I need them. I'm not the needy type though which I think they like about me. I don't feel neglected or abandoned if we haven't talked for a few days, in fact, sometimes I feel like they feel neglected or abandoned, but I'm sure they'd email or skype if they felt too left out!
I've also decided this week that God gave me the worst memory ever so that I could be a surrogate. Really, who's crazy enough to go through all this for someone else? While I was laboring with my second child I remember telling my husband (more like yelling) "why would anyone do this twice?" And then proceeded to have another one of our own and now 2 surrogacies. I'm definitely not mentally stable! I have no clue how I passed that psychiatric evaluation? Lol.
Well, next week viability then hopefully only 14ish more weeks to go! This, so far, is flying by but it'll be a hot summer for this preggo so we shall see! Tata
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