I've survived my first trimester with minimal carnage! No vomiting, just mild nausea and moderate fatigue. Everything I read says most people have a hard time gaining weight in the first trimester due to the nausea but my nausea always got better when I ate so I gained 13lbs! I've gotta get that under control. I feel like it's already better though and it's easier to workout because I'm not so exhausted. And my hunger has calmed slightly.
I'm starting to show a little but mostly I just look fat in the belly I hate this stage of pregnancy where everyone thinks you might be pregnant but no one asks because they don't want to be wrong! I had one very brave family member of a patient ask me when my baby was due the other day, you could tell she regretted her decision as she was saying it then was relieved to know she was right, lol.
Still not much communication from my IP's I've just grown to accept that is the way it's gonna be. Kind of disappointing since this will be my last surrogacy but nothing I can do about it at this point so I shall go with the flow!
Emotionally I'm doing well those hormones have also calmed down, but since I have recently gone through a divorce it makes the whole thing a little more emotional. Not having anyone to really lean on when I am having those moments sucks but I am a strong woman and I will be just fine through it all and I will be better for it in the end. What doesn't kill me will only make me stronger and I will fight to be the strong independent woman I once was before marriage.
Trying to sell my house and work through custody issues and surrogacy and dating (which I've decided is unnecessary at this point) it's all a little much ok a lot much. I think I should join AA so I can use their 'one day at a time" quote. In fact I have so many things going on right now I, most of the time, forget I'm even pregnant! Anyways, sorry that turned into a pity me blog instead of a surrogacy blog, apologies!
I have my first OB appointment on friday I'll be 14 weeks. It's kind of nice not going until then I won't have many appointments since I started so late. Till next time. Merry Christmas and hope you all have a happy and beautiful new year-pray mine will calm down too could ya?
