the after affects...1week later

I was going to make D day my last post but then I realized that a lot of you probably are curious as to how I'm feeling now that it's all over. Well, I'm physically doing great. The cramping is mostly gone the weight, so far, is falling off and the gym is calling my name. Here in a week or so I'll be back in the gym. My boobs are pretty sore, I have been pumping milk for them since birth and will continue to until they leave the country if they want it that long. Pumping is VERY different than feeding a baby. Babies are much more gentle than a plastic machine.
 I have so much energy I want to move all the time, but then I'm up for too long and I will start bleeding a little more. That's my body telling me to slow it down. So I do, for now.
Now for the emotional part. I feel great emotionally, I can definitely tell I had a couple of babies. One minute I'm happy and wanting to go go go, the next I'm yelling at my kids or husband for something stupid. I've gotten to see the babies a couple of times since delivery and they are adorable and I love them, but I don't feel like they are mine at all. Their fathers and Nona (grandma) are head over heels in love with them!  I love watching them taking care of them. They are all smiles even after a night of crying babies they are just plain happy. That makes it all worth it!
I think the part that makes me the saddest is knowing that once they leave here in a few weeks they will be gone.  I probably will never or at least very rarely see them in person. They have their own lives to get back to. I'm talking about my IP's not the babies. Obviously, I'd love to see the babies in the future, but the bond with the IP's, myself and my family has become great. My oldest daughter is going travel to Sweden next summer to see them so there will be contact, but to me that's the hardest part of all of this for me. I'm gonna miss my IP's. I will look forward to the emails and whatever kind of communication we can share in the future, but also understand that they have jobs and family and friends and now 2 more children to raise. They will be busy, so I will take what I can get. I do know they will do their best to stay in touch because that's just how they are. I am excited for the future and to watch these little guys grow up with their daddies!

37.1 weeks ie: D day

Had my dr appointment at 11am. We listened to the heartbeats measured my fundus only 44 and last week it was 47. So I asked if she would be so kind as to strip my membranes because one of my IP's arrived on Wednesday and we all just wanted to get the show on the road. So she checks my cervix and I was dilated to 6cm already. WHAT?  I seriously thought I was in a dream. Who dilates to a 6 and doesn't really even notice?  The night before I was pretty nauseous and had some diarrhea so I got in the bathtub to help and started timing contractions. They were pretty mild and irregular, like every 3-6min, closer than they had been the whole pregnancy, but still very irregular. I never had any bleeding or loss of fluid so I just hung out in the bathtub for a while. Took a reglan for the nausea and went back to bed. When I woke up I was still pretty nauseous and had a lot of indigestion so I ate and took my kids to school.  Then Dr's office....
So apparently since I was already a six she thought I should probably go to the hospital to get them out. OMG I got so nervous. It was so surreal I really felt like I was in a crazy dream where I have babies without any pain at all. Well, it was not a dream, and there was plenty of pain!  I got to the hospital got my IV and got my water broke. A few contractions later I felt baby A drop into my pelvis and the pain started. It was tolerable still because the contractions weren't very close yet. And an hour later I was an 8, so off to the OR we went. Then about another hour later after a lot more contractions I was ready to push. And a few pushes later baby A, 5lbs 11oz was here perfect and pink and with a couple of very happy daddy's. (IP number 2 was there via skype.) Then checking on baby B.....breech of coarse it can't be that easy. So a few contractions and they break water talk about a waterfall I didn't know there was so much water in there. It just kept coming and of coarse my LDR nurse brain was thinking prolapsed cord, but thank goodness that wasn't a problem. Then a couple more contractions we have one foot through the cervix and the other still in the uterus, seriously kid, I was back to being dilated to an 8 so we were gonna have to dilate again so Dr pulled his foot through the cervix which by the way hurts really bad when you start a contraction in the middle of it. But she got it and a few contractions later it's time to push again. This part seemed to take forever because I knew if he didn't come a cesarean it was for me. But he came and it hurt!  But it didn't matter baby B 6lbs 8oz happy and healthy- in shock, but healthy. And dad was ear to ear smiles. Made it all worth while!  So now he's getting to know his 2 sons.  These 2 little bundles of joy that just 34ish weeks ago were little frozen Popsicle embryos and are now 2 perfect little babies. It has been a strange but very gratifying experience I am so blessed that everything has gone as well as it has I am thankful to everyone for their support especially my IP's. I'm so happy for them and their 2 new members of their family!  Till next time????

36 weeks

Wow, 36 weeks pregnant with twins. I feel huge and pretty much everyone who sees me says I look huge, which, by the way, isn't very nice people!  I had a patients family member when I walked in the room say, "wow you are huge!"  Rude you are allowed to think it, just don't say it so horribly!  Speaking of huge though I went to the Dr's last week and was measuring 43 weeks. So I am huge, but I don't need everyone else to tell me so! Trust me I feel it. One of my IP's will be here tomorrow which is a relief. I won't feel as bad if I go into labor with him here. The other will be here in 10days then we have a scheduled induction. Hoping to make it the 10 days then go into labor on my own miraculously!  To bad there's not an eviction button I can push when I deem necessary! Of coarse if that were the case I wouldn't have a job!
   Now for my weekly complaints. More pelvic pain, had one really bad day but most days haven't been horrible. I did experience some lower back pain the other day which I've never had with any of my pregnancies but the sono the other day said baby A was 5lbs 14oz and B was 5lbs 11oz so that's almost 12lbs of baby in by belly so I can imagine they are pulling on my spine pretty good. Attempting to maintain good posture is almost impossible but I am still attempting because I feel like my back feels better if I can.
It's crazy to think that in 2 weeks I will not be pregnant anymore!  It's been a little over a year since I started the surrogacy process and so far have enjoyed it. I really do like being pregnant even with all the complaints. I'm so lucky to not have complicated pregnancies and hopefully the delivery is uncomplicated as well. Keep me in your prayers for that one!  Till next time. ;)