I hate waiting. If it were up to me I'd get matched then get pregnant the next week. And not really hearing from anyone about when this is all going to start doesn't help either. I just received an email today from the IVF clinic saying hi and that they'll be in touch to set up my appointment. Which, by the way, is in LA this time. Another place I've never been. The first trip is so short though that it's almost not worth trying to see anything. It'll be different this time though because it's LA there are things to see everywhere. The last clinic was in Connecticut, which was beautiful, but I really wanted to see NYC and to do that I needed more than a day there and back. That's why we didn't go until it was time for the transfer. Then we had a 45min train ride into the city and another 45min back. Again, we only got one day. But in LA it'll be different. We will fly into the city and stay in the city, so I'll get to look around a little at least. I need to research what to do while I'm there, or maybe ask my IP. He travels a lot so I bet he can hook me up with some info? I just really want to get started with the process, once it starts its like second nature it all just falls into place. I'm kind of nervous about possibly having to do IM injections. I'm a nurse so I know how to do it, but I got kinda spoiled last time with the vaginal suppositories, they were gross, but it was better than a bruised ass for several months. Oh the sacrifices we make to bring little miracles into the world. And in the end, not much of a sacrifice at all when you think about what you've accomplished. A little human, whose biologically related to his/or her parent. Although, if there's one thing surrogacy has taught me is that biology doesn't really matter. Your parents are the people who love you and sacrifice themselves to make you happy. The ones who raise you to be a better you, teach you right from wrong, and except you for you, even if they don't like you all the time. But, having biological children is something we all yearn for and if possible, that's what we strive for. It's not like getting a puppy from the pound instead of a breeder, it's a human child and we all want to pass on our genetics, that's just being human.
Surrogacy has been the most amazing gift I have ever been given, I know, I know gift I've been given? But It has helped me to realize my place in this crazy world, I once was lost but now I am found so to speak. I love helping others become parents, it's amazing. My IP's from last time posted a video of the twins laying in bed together and one was hysterically giggling, I'm not sure at what but I think he was laughing at his brother? But it was adorable, they send me pictures often and are interested in my new surrogacy journey, and I love being able to talk to them about it. I'm not really sure why, but seeing the video of the boys was more satisfying than pictures. Maybe it was the giggling, knowing they are happy and healthy and loved, knowing that what I did mattered to them. I helped make a family whole. And I can't wait to do it again!!!
