Emotionally, it's been rough, not related to feeling loss of the babies or anything related to the pregnancy or delivery. Mostly the drama with the teenager of the house! I feel like the hormones from the pregnancy compound the emotions of that situation. I just have to remind myself this too shall pass. Having babies for other people is nothing compared to having a child of your own tell you they want nothing to do with you, that you mean nothing to them, your selfish and fake. Whats crazy is still loving them with all that you have even after it's been said.
The babies got out of the hospital on Wednesday and are doing amazing thus far with their family. I went and visited yesterday and held them for a while they are pretty adorable and so tiny. The plan is for them to fly home tomorrow, Saturday. It sounds like they are all organized and ready at home with lots of help planned for a little while at least. I was invited to visit them in a few months which sounds pretty fun to get to see their growth and I think it will be more comfortable for them in their own environment. Anyways, something to look forward too.
I'm going to brag a little here, I gained about 50lbs with the pregnancy and 1 week later I'm down 33lbs! It was one of my big concerns so I'm very excited that it's coming off so fast. My goal with this money was to fix all the damage from all the pregnancies (which is why my daughter says I'm selfish) so loosing the weight is a priority. Selfish or not, I think I deserve it I rarely do things for myself so I'm gonna be selfish this once! If I remember I'll do an update after I visit them in a few months. Till then....
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